well basically if I could sum up my mood for today this week in one word it'd have to be UGHHHHHHHHHHH. I'm just so tired; but not that tired that you can sleep off, its that tired that comes from doing the same thing week in and week out. That kind of tired that doesn't really ever leave you. :(

Well today was terrible. Mainly because I'm terrible at chem :( Maybe it was just today but if I'm struggling now I'm scared how I'm going to be in year 12 :(. One word. Redox. Sad moment when I don't even know what to do. I sat there for a period and a half trying to get it. It was so stressful...I still don't know what to do. Something about half equations..or something of the rather. Anyway, it doesn't matter. What matters is I've come home and eaten half a tub of ice cream to swallow my feelings. My tongue is crazy numb and my throat is so dry but it doesn't matter. What matters is I don't want to kill myself as much now. Lifes great. My next move from here is to ask Tommy for help...but I don't want to scare him away; I get mean and difficult when I'm confused :(


I also got to see the half-yearly exam timetable. it not looking too bad...if you overlook the fact that I have chem and bio on the same freakin' day! cue stress. Today just isn't a good day for my relationship with chem is it? :( Basically this is what I remember...
First tuesday back : English (adv)
Wednesday : no exams - public holiday
Thursday : 2u Maths
Friday : Chem and Bio.
Monday : Legal
Tuesday (last day of examination period) : No exams

Somewhere in there I'll have to squeeze in my extension assessment but thats like a 10 minute interview and a submitted response so its all good :)

Well, that's all for today. I hope next weeks better..much better.
Gonna go get some more ice cream; stay cool (ahh get it? cool? ice creams cool? AHHH) and remember a dream is a wish your heart makes.